12.16.2025

i deleted the old blog.

not because it failed, because actually, it was doing fairly alright.

but because it wasn’t honest. or at least, i wasn’t honest.

i was writing while trying to keep it hidden from my friends and family, like this secret side project that somehow wasn’t allowed to exist in daylight.

this got exhausting fast, and i eventually just took a step back and haven’t even looked at it in months.

so we’re starting fresh- right here, right now.

in october of 2024 i was diagnosed with bipolar 1. in june of 2025, adhd joined the party. these facts exist whether i write about them or not, so pretending otherwise feels pointless.

i’ve spent a lot of time trying to make my brain sound more “normal”, more explainable. but it turns out – there’s no outrunning that monster.

this blog isn’t going to be neatly themed or inspirational in a tidy, instagram-caption way. i don’t actually know what i’ll write about yet. some days it might be mental health. some days it might be frustration, clarity, chaos or whatever my brain decides is loud enough to demand attention.

what i do know, is that i’m done hiding.

i’m tired of writing around the truth – instead of through it. i’m tired of pretending my diagnoses are footnotes – rather than important context. i’m not going to edit myself into being something safer, any longer.

so this is me winging it. publicly. honestly. with all the mess intact.

so if you’re here – welcome.

i don’t have a roadmap – just a keyboard a brain that doesn’t know how to be quiet.

let’s see where this goes.

love you, bye.